Airport Answers

I was travelling back home to the beautiful Toronto after being gone for 7 months. Loads of emotions going through me, but mainly just fatigue. Two flights (8 hours of travelling) and I'd be home.

My first flight was smooth. I could not believe how fast it went. I met an awesome friend. Her name is Elsa. Yes, like the Disney Princess. Turns out she was journey to Toronto as well! Tender mercy to have met her because I genuinely hate flying alone.

Anyway, there was some built up traffic that made my plane deboard rather slowly. We had ten minutes to board our next flight. Not really an issue, unless you happen to be in the LAX airport where you have to shuttle from terminal to terminal. I said a quick prayer because I was panicked I would not get home tonight. Immediately, I was assured that I would make it.

Heavy breathing and burning lungs, we made it! Satisfied, I sat back in my seat and said a little prayer to express gratitude. We were suppose to take flight at 9:30. I checked the time, it was 9:45. I felt unusually calm, especially with five crying babies. I whispered another quick prayer regarding those parents who were frantically trying to calm their little beans. Within ten minutes, all the babies were either sleeping or happy. Another prayer of gratitude.

Two hours later, we were still stationed at the airport. Turns out the engine caught fire and they needed a new part in order to proceed with the trip. Although many are upset and tired, I feel gratitude. Immense gratitude for the simple answered prayers I have received in just a short few hours.

I am still not home, but I have met a friend, I am safe, and I have the Lord on my side.

Heavenly Father is totally there and He does answer our questions and request.

Looks like I will boarding again now!

See you soon, Toronto.

Shay

Broken Mirrors

What do you take from a person, that has lied and hid things from everyone, who proceeds to tell you that they do not trust you? You. When you have done literally everything you can to prove yourself trustworthy and have done nothing to break that trust.

In reality, we all have made mistakes. We all lied at some point. We all hid things to hide from the shame. We are human. We grow and learn from those mistakes.

When someone in any kind of relationship shatters a mirror that once held the image of the two, it is clear to see there is no longer an image there. No longer a relationship. However, with some glue and forgiveness we find the mirror to be restored to some degree. The person betrayed can still see those cracks from the once seamless relationship, but can choose to give the benefit of the doubt to the other. What about the person that betrayed that trust? What do they see? Do they see those cracks and blame them on the one they betrayed? Do they refuse to see the mercy and forgiveness provided to them? Or perhaps the one who was once betrayed makes a slip. Does the first to betray provide forgiveness, or leave the pieces of broken glass on the ground?

Again, we all make errors. We all are victims of emotions. Sure, they can blow things out of proportion.

The important thing to note is when all those feelings are settled, where is the trust formed or where is it shattered?

Maybe we feel that someone has no excuse to not trust us, but do we blame them when they do not? Even when we trusted them after they destroyed all trust that was once there?

I am sure we all have different answers. It is just something to think about.

Shay

Look Good For You

It was pretty late one night and I was hungry. I usually stop eating at a certain time because eating late affects my sleep. Anyway, I threw my hands up in defeat and caved in.

That night as we snacked, my roommate and I laughed about how we could careless about the fear of eating late at night and gaining weight. We did not have anyone to really impress.

I marinated on that thought for bit. Why do we feel we need to look good for someone else?

I came up with the following:

When you love someone, there is something really romantic about wanting to look good for them.

It has nothing to do with ownership, or being beneath them or anything negative like that.

You simply think they are really great and you want to be sexy for them. You want to show them how proud you are to have them and you want them to be proud to have you.

I think it can be and is as simple as that. There are other variables that can make it complicated, but in a healthy relationship I think it can be that simple.

Cheers,

Shay

Closure

Sometimes to move forward, you need to take a trip back to the past.

Remembering can help answer those questions of "what if?" It can enlighten and help you realize the mistakes you have made. It can help guide our future choices by weighing in every factor we forgot as memories fade. It can shed light on incidents we shoved in a dark corner wanting to never recall again. It can change everything. 

However, taking that trip back can be so painful. It can remind you of all the good that you once received, but are not receiving now. It can reopen wounds that were once completely healed. It can reawaken an addiction inside of you. Although this is true, you do not have to go there and become what you have already vowed to never become again. Even so, we can greet those memories, addictions, and failures as old friends. We can chat with them and part ways happily.

Closure is essential to ending any kind of event. It is becoming at ease with the fact that things are different now. 

Find your time to heal and take all the time you need. There is no need to rush. It is okay to be sad. Finding that closure can help shape your future and remove any chances of wasting time running around in circles. With it, you can move forward. 

Sometimes you feel a plethora of emotions and do not know how to deal with all. Receiving the necessary closure will help you channel those emotions into happiness. 

You deserve to be happy. Life is too short to dwell on all those things we have lost, but take your time to become you again. Take that trip down memory lane, but once you are done, do not go back again. 

There are so many more lessons to learn and they will only be found in the future.

Cheers, good friends. It is a beautiful life.

Shay